Please forward yourself to Red and Curly.

So... As is obvious I never write in this dang thing anymore.
I've lost motivation.
Sorry!
But!! I have good news, you can click on the link below and follow the blog that David and I are both doing together!

www.pcheartsbe.blogspot.com

You'll quickly notice that David writes in it much more than I do. There's a few reasons for this...
First he's just more responsible when it comes to those kinds of things.
Second he takes all the good blog subjects haha
Third I just find myself all too busy these days!

So I'll keep this one, but just know that I'll be writing in the other one a little more often!

I love you!

Family... isn't it about... time?

I love my family so much!! I really really do. I missed them a lot over the school year being away and all.  I'm glad I've had these past two weeks home to spend time with them.         They're great!

But man I'm sure glad I'm not staying home all summer. 

I'd go insane. 

Holy Kanolie!

Ok I can't even tell you how many hours of my life have been waisted away watching Jamie Cullum videos on YouTube.  This is one of the best ones, but of course there are many many MANY other good ones! I know it's kinda long, that's cause he does most the song improv! Then the last minute-ish is him introducing his band.  haha so I know it's long, but it's absolutely worth it! 

Enjoy...

arg.

Ok, so it's terrible that I haven't blogged in FOREVER and the first thing I can think of to write about is something that lately I've noticed completely drives me up the wall.  So let me get this off my chest, and then I'll quit complaining for a while...

"...sorry to bother..."

These three words.

They are horrible. 

Never end a conversation with me saying these three words.

It just makes me feel like I've been a jerk to the person that says it to me.  If they're really bothering me, it'll be obvious.  No need to end every single conversation like this.  It kinda makes me think that the person that said that thinks of themselves badly.  Like they are automatically putting themselves below me.  

Sure, I guess there are times that these words can be appropriate.  But when we're good friends? No need to say this.  We were having a perfectly normal conversation, but when I had to go this was thrown in. I didn't like it. 

ok.

That's enough of that.

Besides that what have I been  up to?  

BUSY!!!

With the end of the semester coming all way too fast on me, with summer jobs getting in place, with roommates, with going home lots lately, and... so much more it seems.

I'm so very ready for this semester to be over! While I really have loved it, I'm very ready for a break. I'm so excited for this camp! It's going to be a blast getting there.  I'm excited to spend more time this summer with family and friends! (A certain few in particular!) As ready as I am to get out of here for a few months, I'll miss this place.  I had great classes this semester, laughed oh so crazy hard with Hope, and was able to start getting involved in the Logan community making it feel much more like home.  

So lately I've grown so close to a certain friend of mine.  We've been on and off in the past, from friends, to dating, to friends, to nothing, to dating, to friends, to dating, to sorta dating, to friends, to nothing, to friends... haha what comes now? Well only the summer will tell... but I will admit, I'm quite excited.  He's the one that makes me smile through the tears and sleep when stress takes me over. We've had such a long past, going through everything imaginable.  I think I'm ready to come home and see him more than a couple times a month.  I'll be the first to admit I miss him.  

So the Sparknotes version:

-Don't end conversations with "sorry to bother you"

-I've been insanely busy.

-I'm ready to come home!

-I miss my best friend. 

:)

(oh, and ps-- I that sickness I had? I was sick for 3 and a half weeks. No worries, better now! ...ish. Just the regular college student life.) 

Should I stay or should I go?

I'm bored. Bored out of my mind! Sickness is upon me and although I probably could get up, I'm just too tired.  I might have slept about 7 hours in the past three nights combined. 

Question: Why can't I sleep? 

Answer: Because I can't go one minute without a coughing fit and frenzy. (literally)

So here I'll lie, watching my Gilmore Girls, Little Mermaid, and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory through the nights and days. Haha no wonder my roommate went home for the weekend! Can't blame her! So the next question comes: do I go to the Health and Wellness center? (or as we like to call it, the Wealth and Hellness center) Or do I putter through it for a couple more days to see if things start to look up? Honestly, it's just a cold right? I'll be fine. Usually I would never even consider medical attention for a stupid cold. But when i realize how swollen everything inside my throat is and then actually think how hard it is to breathe with it all like that... well, makes me wonder if they could do anything for me.  Guess we'll just have to see. 

Maybe I'll be able to decide after some Meet the Robinsons. 

Trying

Courage To Try

Simple People

I've spent a lot of time trying to understand myself

And I've watched others pass me by

Pass by like a thousand cars going down the street

As I stand here on the curb

Waiting in line

Waiting on time

All I wanna do 

Is quit being unsatisfied with who I am

I wanna become what I can from the inside

By having the courage to try

Courage to try

Others have suggested work that they think I should get into

But I am frozen waiting for a cure

Waiting like a star fish on the beach with my decisions keepin' me here

Thinkin' about work, thinkin' it could hurt

All I wanna do

Is quit being unsatisfied with who I am

I wanna become what I can from the inside

By having the courage to try

Courage to try

It takes a lot of ambition to find your own way

I've go to rely on my intuition 

All I wanna do 

Is quit being unsatisfied with who I am

I wanna become what I can from the inside

By having the courage to try

By having the courage to try

To try

To try.

 

I miss the simplest of people. 

Gross.

Birthday + Spring Break + Tons of fun things planned = Sydney Sick.

and no one is surprised.  (especially not myself.) 

Churchy moment...

Institute, I love it! Surprising huh? 

This semester I finally signed up for an institute class, at first I was really nervous about it. 

My roommate drug me to this class the first day of the semester and at the beginning I thought she was insane, what freshman that's not even dating anyone takes a Marriage and Family Relationships class? Uhh, (usually) NOT me! 

But she begged and begged me to go, (she took it last semester) so finally I went in and sat in the far corner. 

Ok, within the first 10 minutes I was hooked.

He explained that the class was really for any one on any relationship level, and it's true. I can apply everything I learn in that class not only to me and a future spouse, but also to any relationship I have with anyone I come in contact with!

I literally love every moment of this class, the hours in there fly by feeling like only minutes. 

Each class really hits home, and I always feel like he's talking directly to me. 

Anyways... Last week we had a long discussion about how men and women are different on monday, then went into how men and women are alike on wed. 

On monday I learned that women communicate to reach intimacy. We talk to become closer. Men on the other hand, build that closeness first-then they communicate to complete a task. See how it's opposite? We communicate to bond, they bond then communicate. Interesting huh? 

Then on Wed he put up a slide, (this is what I really wanted to post...) He put up: 

The Top 8 Ways Men and Women Are Alike 

by Victor W. Harris, M.S.

1. Both men and women need to feel safe and secure. 

2. Both men and women need to develop a positive picture of themselves. 

(we need to be independent before we can be codependent)

3. Both men and women need to value themselves and to feel valued by others.

(core of the Gospel-- Sons and Daughters of Heavenly Father)

4. Both men and women need to be involved in close, loving relationships.

(don't date someone that doesn't already have close friends, it will be hard for them to build relationships.)  

5. Both men and women need to feel like they belong. 

(both have to feel like they belong to the other, and that they belong to the other's extended group of friends/family.)  

6. Both men and women need to feel self-respect and to feel like they are respected by others. 

(self-concept is not exactly self-esteem), (Do your beliefs match your doings?), (DEMAND to be treated right.)

7. Both men and women need to be growing and developing in mental, physical, social, emotional, and spiritual ways. 

(a good relationship will be intimate in every single one of these ways.)

8. Both men and women need to feel competent or like they are good at doing or achieving certain things. 

We discussed each of these in for a long time, noticing that some of them could be considered the same but that if you look at them deeply they are all completely different. 

It gave me the chance to take a step back and look at the relationships that I have now, and to realize where I need to work. 

This class is truly AMAZING! 

... Don't be surprised if you hear about it again, cause I think after every lesson I want to go teach someone what I've been learning. :)

Livin' the Life.

This last weekend was Amazing! (with a Capitol A!) 

It included:

Going home. 

Going to a completely awkward dance, and laughing hard enough to cry!

Watching my brother dance, and count out-loud as he performed. (1,2,3,4,1,2,3,4)

Sleeping in till after 10:00 everyday.

Spending some much loved time with Leah. And Mike. And Galloways.

Going on a Valentines date that could have been the pits, but instead was Incredible!

Eating heart shaped meat loaf and heart shaped pizza and heart shaped chocolate.

Seeing Pink Panther 2. (not the greatest of movies, maybe a redbox, but don't pay anymore)

Receiving glow in the dark silly puddy. And princess fruit snacks.

Going to see old friends from the home church ward.

Eating one of the best steaks I've ever eaten. 

Taking my Brb dinner, and laughing extra hard. 

Deciding Brb is hilarious on drugs.

Spending an evening standing back- watching the ways that cousins, aunts, uncles, and grandparents interact with each other. (I sometimes forget how big of a family I have! I was literally blown away when I walked into Shannon's house on sunday and had to take a breath. :) I loved it. )

Eating the sandwich from The Round Up Deli that I've been craving for weeks now.

Getting the grand tour of his apartment, and meeting a roommate.

Spending quality time with a friend that I haven't even talked to in weeks.

Driving home laughing till I cried about the stories Hope tells. 

Eating at Wendy's to put off going home for just a half hour longer.

Learning Twinkle Twinkle on the violin!

Kicking trash at Farkle. 

Watching movies on the couch Igor, Transformers, Open Season 2. 

Playing with Shelly, watching her "jog", feeding her, and loosing her but finding her under the

couch. 

Having some fantastic conversations with my mom, about a book! (that's never happened before.)

...I think that just about sums up the main points of the weekend. I loved every second of it!  Now to tackle the crazy, crazy week ahead of me! wow.  

Addictions?

So lately I've realized how much I love habits... 

For example, everyday I set my alarm for 7:10, but push the snooze 3 times.  Getting myself our of bed at exactly 7:19 everyday... weird stuff like that.

Then there's other things that I've just recently discovered I really love to do! Such as:

Tetris. Love, love, love tetris lately.  I'm getting pretty good too I'd have to say.

I've always loved music, and been one that seeks out the new-and-best.  So within the past week I've discovered: Vampire Weekend (see previous post), also Chris Botti is incredible.  Last week I went to the local theater to see a band called The Hot Club of San Francisco--AMAZING show! They're a gypsy jazz band, that just catches your ear as soon as they pick up their instruments. Great great stuff.

Movies wise... Gilmore Girls. I'm pretty addicted. It's bad. I watched the entire first season in... 2 weeks. Should I admit that? haha it's just good stuff. I'll be starting the second season today!  The other movie lately? Igor!! HILARIOUS! I'd say it'd even come close to Meet the Robinsons. I know, I know... crazy. But see it and you'll (hopefully) agree.

Food=Fruit Snacks. 

duh.

I've always loved going to little cafe's.  I just love the feel of them, the ways they smell, the cute ways they're painted, the sounds, everything about them.  But at the same time I usually feel a little weird cause usually people go in to drink coffee.  Sure I like the smell of coffee but I've never drank it and don't plan on drinking it. So what do i do? Go and just sit there without ordering anything? nnnnooooooooo... italian soda. Most cafe's (specifically the one's here on campus) serve them and boy oh boy do I love them!! :) 

So in other words my life lately consists of: tetris, vampire weekend, gilmore girls, and italian sodas. This is truly college life. 

My Favorite of the Day:

THE best.

Now now, I know you think you have the best. But I can tell you... you don't. 

I love her more than expressible in such a small note.  

She has always been there for me, my best friend. 

She's always ready to talk and even more ready to listen.  

Even when I'm the natural idiot she loves me.  

She's put up with all kinds of crap I've given her, but shows love in return.

She shows appreciation. 

She knows exactly what to say. 

I know this all sounds like an exaggeration, but that's exactly why she's THE BEST--she's MY mom.  There's no way I could ever thank her for what she's given me. I truly hope to someday be the kind of mother to my children she's been to me.  We've had our trials, (living 2 hours away isn't exactly my favorite) but we work through them. I will forever be blessed to have her as my mom.  

Happy Birthday Mom. 

Uhh...

Ok. I don't really know what to write about.... but in some strange way I'm pretty sure I wanna write in this thing. Maybe if I just start going it'll eventually come to me right?? ...  

...uhh...

Too bad there isn't some kind of training book about what to talk about on these things. I guess I'll start with my weekend?

I went home on Friday cause it's my mom's birthday this Wednesday and considering I won't get to be there on Wednesday, I figured I'd do what I could.  So after the whole craziness of trying to decide if I would be able to come home or not (stupid weather) we finally just decided to go for it. So bla bla bla we finally get to Lehi. Yay! When I get home it's the usual stuff: wrestle with the brothers, talk with parents, text Leah to see what's up... ya know. Eventually we decide to go to dinner for the mother's birthday at JCW's. It was, of course, delicious and filling! Also got to run into Janelle there, which was kinda cool considering I haven't seen her in... couple months I guess. Crazy the way time works. Days go on forever but the months seem to fly.  Anyways... After eating my ranch bacon burger (and feeling at least 17 lbs heavier) I went up to Leah's  to help paint and texturize the main level! That was cool, I've never done that before, so it was interesting to learn how. I probably did horrible and they probably had to fix it all up after I left, but that's okay cause I felt like I still helped! (I also put my initials in the corner we'll see what they say when they see it! hehe) Soo... Then we all sat around and had nice conversations about life and the works till around midnight when Ty and Leah drove me home. It was a wonderful evening with the best friends ever.

Saturday was good. Just spent the day with family, which is no complaint. Went to Gavin's basketball game... He's a major sports kid. Then... I learned how to make fried rice!! I know it sounds stupid... but it's my favorite ever when my mom makes it- and now i finally learned!! After that the family came over for birthdays, and I got to go see my new cousin Carson! Darling. awww... That about sums up my day!

Sunday has just been well... Sunday. Bonnie came over at about 9, we made breakfast and ate lots of food. Then about 10ish we were off. I had to be back for church cause of my calling (whatta calling--go to a special sunday school class) so we drove through the storms of rain and snow and slush and sleet and plenty of fog to go around.

Well...

that's about all I have to write for now. Forgive this post, because YES  I do know it's boring. Buuut, I didn't know what else to write! So there ya go. :)

Here we go...

Weird... I don't know if I can actually blog. 

I just don't have anything interesting to say! Especially tonight. Too tired. 

So confession: I really just set this up so I could read Bry's blog. I like reading it, feeling like I have this weird tiny connection with her when I actually know what's going on in her life. If I hadn't read her blog I wouldn't have known about her job (which I'm a little too jealous of) or her boy (who does some pretty darn cute stuff)... sooo when she made her blog private it was time for me to get a blog of my own so that I could read in. 

Who knows. MAYBE I actually will write.

Tonight? doubtful... 

But tomorrow's a new day. 

:)